I knew what i wanted.
To be better at acting. To hone my craft. To fulfill a dream of going abroad to study acting because this is the reason why i stopped further studies.
To be able to produce better works.
But i have a weird fear now.
A fear that when i leave, i will lose whatever little works that i have built over these years.
And honestly, being great at something doesn't mean you will get hired.
Spending 10,000hours only guarantee you to be great, it doesn't mean the client/director will like your face.
Like all these while i'm living on raw favour and grace of God.
I need raw faith of God too.